Hello everyone!

God has been dealing with me simultaneously in my relationships with people and with Him.
(that makes sense since Jesus said 
“‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’ This is the first and greatest commandment.  And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself. All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments.” <Matthew 22:37-40 NIV>)

One of the ways He has been doing this, is calling me to bring frustration I have in my relationships to Him, privately, lamenting out all my anxiety and anger to Him, casting it upon Him.
When I am obedient, one thing that often happens at one point in this process is Him drawing a parallel between what this person is doing to me and what I do to others and/or God.
Here is one example:
I was lamenting to God about one of my biggest pet peeves. It really irks me when people say, "WHY?!" with an attitude. Saying why with an attitude, erases the question the word should be asking and transforms into a challenge. It feels like a perversion to me, a manipulation. Like the person is pretending with their words that they want to understand, but the rest of them is not actually ready to hear me at all. It feels like, "be vulnerable, so I can destroy you."  Part of why it bothers me so is that I long for that question to be asked of me in a genuine way. I long for others I care about to long to understand me. 
If we ask, "...why?..." in a surrendered, way, it can be a beautiful invitation to be vulnerable and connect. 

Well, after God absorbed all my rage and comforted me, He showed me how I too have armored up-mid conversation with someone. I too, have been trying to continue to use loving words while all of my non-verbal communication has started trying to fight my own battle. I too, am just as flawed as every person I am so frustrated by. 

Over more time, God has also revealed to me how I was doing that to Him. In the past, there were times when I lamented to God about my feelings to Him, but He has helped me realize when I did, I would say something like "I just don't understand how both of those things can be true."  but I was not adding, "I want to know." It was exactly what I hate about, "Ugh, WHY?!?!?" I was admitting "I don't understand" but not being courageously vulnerable enough to say "I want to understand."

I prayed for a scripture to share with you and here it is, in 2 different translations:

Proverbs 18:12
"Fools find no pleasure in understanding but delight in airing their own opinions." (NIV)

"A fool hath no delight in understanding, but that his heart may discover itself." (KJV)

I pray you are able to receive a special gift from the Holy spirit upon reading this and throughout the week, something exciting for just you, blessing your relationship with Him and the body of Christ. 


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